I arrived home tonight and had this in my email along with a note asking me to publish it here.
I will write a post on my thoughts on the matter later this weekend.
Hello, oxers! This is Shadowy_Niddyz here, recent evictee of the eXtreme ladder. What a surprise it was to dash into my room on Friday night (December 29, to be exact) to register for Ayla's no pinks tourney only to find that I wasn't a member! I contacted Ayla through yahoo and she informed me that she had received complaints about the fact that I had won ten tourneys in a row and had a very large streak (34, I think she said) going. Majority ruled, so to keep the peace, eXtreme kicked me off the ladder.
There's the story, in case you haven't heard it, and I'm going to come out and say that I don't blame eXtreme or any of its members in the slightest! Honestly, putting myself in your shoes...I'm not sure if I would even believe myself. Some kid shows up, wins a ton of games, plays words he doesn't even know the definitions for...it certainly looks suspicious! It's natural and normal to think that the kid is cheating.
Heck, when Josh (sorry to drag you into this) first showed up, I suspected a generator. Some days when he kicks my sorry rear in ladders, I wonder how he knows those words. The thing that lets me know he's not a cheater is that Josh is ready and willing to give new words a shot. Sometimes it works---oftentimes it doesn't, and players capitalize on that to beat him. Even when no mistakes like that are made, Josh still gets beaten, and so I made my own judgment that he's not a cheater. He could've learned those words by watching his mother play, or by memorizing a dictionary! : p Whatever it is, I made that decision for myself.
All of you out there, I'm sure, have your opinions on Josh. You also have them on me. I understand that; we all make decisions based on what we know. Therefore, I want to give you a little more information.
I've been playing wordox since---I think---the seventh grade. I met a woman in social one one day---mitlarheel or miltarheel or something like that, it's been ages---who referred me to league play. Curious, I went to Pairs as she suggested and checked it out. At the time, TileMistress was running the Wordoxtournies league. I joined, and promptly got kicked in the face repeatedly. I remember that I was 3-27 after a week or so with a massive losing streak, but I was proud of those wins. Those of you who were around then are familiar with my history there. That's right, I'm talking to Holly...JoanieAt...Perrin (as TheTerminator, I believe, who I beat once and was darned proud of it, too!)...Mummy...Pam...Ceedie...Rick...Nanc...the list goes on and on. I remember playing you, losing to you, and striving to get better while having fun all the while. After a while, Tile approached me and asked me to become a TD. I was thirteen at the time, but I accepted, and went on to host tournaments and play as often as I could, soon becoming a Head TD. It was a lot of fun to host, as well as to play---to keep learning and having fun while doing it. Anyone remember Millie? Always used to play on table fifty...she taught me a lot of lessons (including the word MOUSER, wherein I learned what the orange dots were for). How about Peachblossom? HartDucha (and her many aliases) was a particularly difficult opponent of the time, too. I learned something from everyone I played and eventually improved on my game.
Without going into too much of WT's past (it's a little ugly), Tile gave the league to AvonLisa after some things happened within the league. WT became OxFest at that point---I think May of 2004, forgive me if I'm wrong. After a couple of months off, I felt the urge to direct again, so I became a TD at OxFest. I was promoted to HTD after a bit. Things were hunky-dory (sorta) for a time, but then, after a good battle, Avon's husband died of cancer. She and her co-admin PeanuttiestOne left the league, and so Rica and Wordthief stepped up to head it. As of late, I've become the third member of the admin team, and I couldn't be happier at the Fest. Sure, we don't get too many tournaments to run, but we try. We have fun. C'est la vie, non?
There's my past, in a nutshell. There's more, though, so if you're still reading, take a break and get some cookies or something, please. :-)
Looking around at the members of eXtreme, I see plenty of faces that weren't here when I started. I never did branch out from Oxfest until interleague came around. When it did (first as a general meeting place with no stats, then as a league itself when experts became open), I soon joined. It felt like my days at WT---I was getting whipped, but this time I held my ground a little better. Queenie, Bigwurm, Wordman, Dorcas, Cleo, Perrin, Ivy, Blu, and so many others have beaten me in Experts and still continue to do so. Yes, I won tourneys there when I first started, but I remembered how to get blown out of the water once more.
Finally, when I heard that Melisca was hosting partners tournaments on Sundays in eXtreme, I got off my keester and joined. Partners, out of all the quirky games I play, is my absolute favorite. I'll team with anyone and do my best; it's fun! Give it a try if you haven't. Anyways, I joined eXtreme, got my butt handed to me in partners (courtesy, I believe, of WitchWord), and played every now and then.
Since I've been on vacation lately I decided to spend my nights in Social Room 2, playing eXtreme tournaments. Of late, I managed to win quite a few (some by the luck of the tiles) games there and became the number one rank on Wednesday (I think) for the first time ever there.
Then came Friday, and we're back to the present.
So...there's that extremely long summary and my wordox life story. Those of you who have the stamina to keep reading may be wondering why I've asked Perrin to post this, and here's why: I don't cheat. I've been around for a long time, as I've just long-windedly explained. I take my chances with words (ever seen my ATTENTION ALL comments in the lobby? Yeah, those are words that I thought worked, and I played them...only to find that they don't) and sometimes it works. I stack and pray sometimes that vowels are lacking. Yeah, I know a lot of weird words. It's because I've been playing for six years. That tends to happen. Someone who immigrates (or emigrates, whatever it is) to another country eventually learns the language by hearing it over and over again. It takes a while, but they grasp it.
To those of you that petitioned for my removal, I want to say that I understand your stance completely. It certainly looks suspicious that someone as young as I am is as good as I am at this game. You didn't know my past, most of you, and I understand that because of that you were inclined to believe that I cheat. I don't agree with that statement, obviously...but I understand why you believed that.
I've laid out my story here for you to read. Believe or don't, that's your choice...heck, that's why God gave us free will! I place no blame anywhere. In fact, if it helps, I forgive you. I know that sounds a bit self-righteous---heck, this whole thing probably sounds self-righteous---but I am still a child. In my naivete, I want to be everybody's friend, but I guess that it's time that I face facts and realize that not everyone is going to like me. I've tried my best, but if you don't like me...hey, you don't like me! That's all right. It hurts, but it's all right. I will live.
To the administrative team of eXox, I thank you for doing what's best for your league. If my presence there caused so much tumult, perhaps it's best if I don't play there any longer. I'll do whatever it takes to keep the peace. I would've appreciated being asked to step down (which I would have done) instead of being ejected, but the end result is the same and that's what ultimately matters.
In fact, if the wordox community doesn't want me to play at interleague anymore either---or oxfest---feel free to ask the admin teams of those two leagues (I would, naturally, not be a part of the deciding team in oxfest in this matter) to have me step down and play no longer. I will very gladly host tournaments for all of you. It's something I enjoy, and if I can't ox, then I'd at least like to help out where I can.
I guess that's all I really have to say. I just wanted to get this all out into the air, and I thank Perrin for allowing me the means to do so. Feel free to e-mail me (
sshrew777@hotmail.com) or leave a comment here regarding this matter (I hope that is okay, Perrin, I don't mean to infringe). I'll gladly answer anything anyone has to say. If you have evidence that I cheat, then by all means please present it to me...I'd like to see it! Just please, please...show a little class and keep it out of the wordox rooms. If you want to have words with me and don't want to do it here, then arrange it in private. It is what is best.
Thanks so very much for the wonderful games, and "good luck" to you all.
--Shadow